Zoloft

I am deeply embarrassed to say I have postpartum anxiety/depression and that I am on medication for it. I haven't told anyone besides Chad and my best friend Amy. I feel like if anyone knew they would assume I cracked under the pressure of being a mom... or I worry they will treat me differently. I already notice Chad treating me a little differently since I started taking the medication. He is checking in on me more and more and assuming everything is stressing me out. I wish I could have taken the medicine without even telling him, but at the same time I am so happy that I have him here for me. I do need to talk things through more now and he listens. I need that.

I have been on my medication for a week now and already am noticing a difference. It was a trial/error the first few days as far as getting my body used to it and figuring out when to take it. I was EXTREMELY nauseous the first day, and had insomnia the next day (I was up till 3am). Now I started taking the pill with my lunch and it seems to be perfect. I am tired at bed time and when I start to get nauseous I just need to have a small snack. I will say, even only being on it a week I am noticing a difference. Maybe it is all in my head or maybe the medication was something I needed, but either way I feel better. I feel like there isn't a weight on my chest at all times. I feel like I can breathe when Ellery is being her crazy self before snapping at her. I feel like I can worry about what's happening in front of me and not what will happen later on. I hope this continues on and that I continue to enjoy life like this.

I know I shouldn't be embarrassed, because it isn't anything I have control over. However, no one talks openly about ppd...is it really not that common or is it that everyone is too ashamed to admit they are going through a hard time? To be honest, I wish more people talked openly about it...I know I would like to talk to someone who has been through this, just to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I wont have to be on this medication forever.